It's been a really hard year... My family suffered, my kids suffered, my husband suffered, but most of all I suffered... A routine yearly girly exam said otherwise. What was to be a simple surgery to remove Stage 0 cervical cancer turn into Stage 3 a week later. From there my mental and physical health crashed to the ground for my husband and kids to dig throw. After four, yes four right kidney infections, they have seen an abnormal mass that has yet to detremed... And I have let all this pull me into a dark hole! I'm done! It's time to fight, not just for my health, to be happy, to enjoy my kids, to love my husband with EVERYTHING I have, TO LIVE! Tomorrow is not promised, but I have today! So this winter break I will catch up on all the ARC's I have fallen behind on! So to my family, I'm so sorry, to my kids teachers, I'm so sorry! To InkSlinger, I'm so sorry, to myself I'm so sorry! I have let the Cancer win, I let the weight gain win... No, more! It's time to live, even if I feel bad, or I'm scared! To anyone I failed I'm sorry! LET'S LIVE!!!!